Moving On

Dear Mental, it's been FOREVER since I blogged. Well, looked what happen?

Last term's in already and Summer has started :)

What a nice way to finish up life in Bellerbys. :) Although, the 'saying goodbye' part ain't much of a good thing. SIGHS. A few weeks ago I had to say goodbye to my awesome seniors and friends who finished their last term already. It was hard saying goodbye, I know that we would still be able to see each other when we come back to London in September for uni. Insyaallah :)

Speaking of unis, I for one am desperate in need for a place in a university. I have been rejected by 3 of my UCAS choices already, not to be over confident, but I didn't know that I would be at this state by July, -__-

Sighs, nevertheless, I am not giving up. Life's too short to just let everything go. I am still holding, or more like BARELY holding on. HAHA, So yeah, life has been very overwhelming these past couple of days. I would be lying if I said that college was easy. It's real life I tell you. It's just ready to get your guard down if you don't be careful.

Basically, what I've learned so far in Bellerbys is that:

I HAVE TO FOLLOW MY GUT PLEASE :)

And pray a lot :) HEE. So yeah. With a little bit of help from myself, Allah, family and friends, I am not surprised that I am still surviving in London :)

Okay dokay, since I have only a few hours left to move out from my old room to my new one, I should get going! :) Will update soon about my 'new' room. :)

tabye

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Guiding Myself Through Life

Hey Mental! I am so sorry I have left you for about two months or so without any update about my new current life in London.
Yes, I am at last in London! :) It's like a dream come true. Haha. Oh well, it's already February and lots have happened!
I am currently starting my half term break tomorrow! YAY.
Haha, so really excited to have some break after working hard for the past month and a half.
I made quite a number of new friends and they're really nice :)
At least they're there to make me feel less homesick. :) I miss my friends back at home as well though :(
Alhamdulillah for the Internet :D HAHA.
Oh, I went to Maroon 5's gig last week by the way. It was DAMN awesome. I went for it with AJ, Nav and John, plus some other students from our college.
It was cool that the opening act was Sara Bareilles! She sings very well live! I salute her :')
Maroon 5 was obviously awesome! It was worth waiting for! And also worth £25! HAHA.
Luckily mama didn't flip when she found out that I went to see them!
She was just glad that I came back safely and in one piece :D
Well, so far so good. I am currently taking 3 subjects for this term:
a) Art b) English and an extra subject which is c) Business Maths
I got 64% PHEW. That's okay right? I mean , I missed 5 chapters damn it -__- HAHA, I am REALLY RUSTY, hence the marks.
Oh and plus, I suck at Business Arithmetic and I made TONS of SILLY MISTAKES according to Mr. Aslan :/ SIGHS.
But hey, guess what? John is going to be my tutor for FREE! :) Thanks John Lam :D
So, I really owe him :)
Not only that, I will be applying for AA with Emily and Fatima! WOOT.
EXCITED. Insyaallah I'll get in :)
My dream would be fulfilled to be in the best architecture school in London!
Okay, will stop here for now.
Loads more to tell!
Shall not cram everything in one post :)

tabye

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Disaster? I Guess?

Dear Mental,

What's going on with the boys in bands? :O

I mean, Sash's LOVE, Dan Flint just got himself BLONDE hair like a few weeks ago!

And now guess what,

MARTIN BENNETT JOHNSON

turned

BLONDE HEADED

as well

-_____-

oh god.

I'm still TRYING.. or more like BARELY holding onto my seat when I saw his pics!

GAH

WHY MARTIN? WHY?

tabye

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Just Don't Panic

Dear Mental,
It's been a WEEK since WE talked.
Is it me or maybe we're just not going to see each other anymore?
I know that I'm making it a big deal, but I never thought of it as a bad thing until a few people actually pointed it out.
"Why didn't you try calling and go out?" "Didn't you try texting?"
After those questions were asked, finally I realised there was like somewhat rather a 'HOLE' in my chest *As quoted by Bella Swan from The Twilight Saga*
So, I'm guessing, I feel empty when you're not around?
Why do I even feel this way about you?
GEEZ.
I'd have to admit, having you around was much more, happy? or gleeful?
Oh god. More like I just feel like I don't want you to go away from my sight.
Mother told me, at some point, these were those feelings which I rarely get unless I met someone like you.
YaAllah? Really?
WHY. OH.WHY.
To be honest, you were the FIRST person who actually made me feel this way so badly.
Let's just hope, you're not just another useless bad memory that will be remembered.
I want you to be an unforgettable memory which I would keep wanting to repeat like a photographic memory in my mind.
You were the one who started this scene, so let's not just let the unsaid scripts left hanging.
Maybe,just maybe, one day you'll come back into the picture and add a beautiful caption to it for both of us to remember forever.
Let me remind you, I'll be leaving.
So, if you have anything to say to me, just say it before I leave.
You have 15 DAYS.

'Cause you can't avoid me now, you'll be just fine without me, tell me the stories when I get home.

tabye

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Maybe It's Time For Reality

Dear Mental,
Found my old old 'Fitness First' book.
I accidentally landed on this particular page which had these 2 particular quotes which I should've and will live by from now.
Since only now, when I read it properly and interpreted it properly then only I can understand fully what both quotes were trying to say.
Sorry, it takes me awhile to understand something. So if you have a problem with that, then I think you better go read some other blogger's blog.
So one of the quotes were;

" What you were then, is what you have become. It is a timeless journey that affirms growing up being a beautiful tragic-comedy."

As quoted from the Malaysian teen dramedy 'Goodbye Boys' creator and director, Bernard Chauly under Red Films Production which also produced Gol & Gincu : The Movie and Gol & Gincu : The Series.

The second beautiful quote that I find IRONICALLY TRUE LITERALLY is;

"Education is our ticket out. Youth is a time when everything seems exaggerated. A slow dance with your girl/boy means everything. People's actions and deeds affect you in a big way."

Of course, the quote was also from the movie 'Goodbye Boys' which starred the famous Malaysian actors, Lisa Surihani and Razif Hashim as the lead female and lead male role.

Okay, haha, I guess I love this movie so much, that I am kinda stuck to it (;

So I guess, that's what I'm trying to say. :) The quote really says, 'TEEN ANGST'! and it LITERALLY speaks on behalf of ALL of US TEENS generally.

tabye

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Aim For The Stars and You'll Never Be Shot Down

Dear Mental,

16 DAYS

Being strong is only an option, not responsibility.

I've been longing for this moment and yet I am afraid to go for it.

tabye

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Overwhelmed Due To Your Absence From My Life

Dear Mental,

I was just going through my old ancient toy chest which I haven't lay a finger on for like? what 5 years, HAHA. So I found a random notebook that I used to have.
I was so, somehow, OVERWHELMED.
I've never felt this emotionally affected in such a long time.
I think senior year is just always like.
I saw like old pictures of my family and I.
I took all of the pictures with my polaroid camera.
It was worth it.
Sighs.
Seriously, can the end of 2010 get any more emotional?
I guess so.

I've never felt this overwhelmed with life.

So far, life is good, but let's hope it'll be better.

tabye

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