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Everybody's Got Me Looking In The Wrong Direction

1st : Saras' 19th :)
3rd: Sean San's 19th :)
7th : Vivonne's 19th :)
8th: AJ's 19th :)
22nd: FutureProof at Camden Barfly, London :)
23rd: Semester 2 Opens!
27th : Afiq's 19th :)

4th: All Time Low, We Are The In Crowd & The Maine w/ Nav at The Forum (Hmv Forum), London.
17th: Ezra's 9th :)

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Too Smitten For Words

Dear Mental,

Tonight was the night that I poured my heart out to my friend about how much I like this guy in school.

So, as I unfold more stories and moments about him, the more I realise and also my friend pointed out that, I really like him THAT MUCH.

I don't know if it's a mental obsession or I really do have feelings for him.

However, I'm pretty sure I am really into him purely based on his personality, looks & etc.

Not because I am an obsessed stalker -__-

I have never had feelings for a dude until it can make me go as insane as ever!

I tried getting over him, but all the little things that reminds me of him, or things that he say or do, it will always put a smile on smile face and just makes me happy.

Having him around, makes me feel happy. I guess, that is what I want from him if he was my boyfriend.

He will always be there to make me happy. That's pretty much what I need right now.

I know I have my best friends but, it wouldn't to hurt to have a best friend and a boyfriend as one package right?

Although, based on my current Semester 1 results, I'm not so sure if he would even be interested in me -_-

Hmm, insyaallah he'll be fine with me. I'm still hoping.

Hopefully, things between me & him will have some progress. At the rate we're going, so far everything's going smoothly. I think.


Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Feeling The Independence

All Time Low, We Are The In Crowd & The Maine



Feeling The Independence

FutureProof , Chloe Swaby, Dive Bella Dive & The Debut



Semester 2 :)

Dear Mental,

Just needed to remind myself that this is the new timetable for Semester 2:

9am-12pm = Design Explorations

9am-12pm = Architectural Planning & Design Studio

1pm-4pm = Introduction Into Technology & Design

5pm-8pm = Transferable Skills For The Built Environment


Young Hearts Being Torn

He's been on my mind.

He is the reason why I might be suffering from a first degree or maybe second degree insanity.

It's like this emotional instability is controlling my whole sense of right and wrong.

It's as if I don't know what choices I should make on the subject of love.

I don't blame him.

I blame myself.

Why do I have such a weak heart.

The heart of a naive girl who might be stinking of desperation just because she's never had that special guy in her 18 years of living.

They said youth is the time to discover, but I don't seem to be discovering anything.

Like in Greek, "I left black & white back in high school , but from here on out, it's all shades of grey."

Nothing is the same, the systems are different. Even rules are literally disobeyed. Things now happen for a reason and not because they HAVE to happen.

It's happening to me now, I am sadly just stuck at a road block or dead end.

Waiting for someone to pick me up and show me the right way to end this endless emotional war of mine.

Maybe I need to think more about it.


Sunday, January 15, 2012

My Morning Heart Beats

Dear Mental,

It's a lovely Sunday morning. *cue Maroon 5* :)

Sunny 3degrees in Chelmsford today.

I was thinking that maybe I should start off the morning by blogging so that I will continue on with something more productive throughout the day.

Insyaallah things will go according to plan.

Nothing much going on today. Haha, just maybe might pop into the gym. I need to do one session without Simon.

Currently listening to One Direction. Haha, Sadly I am a sucker for pop songs, so sue me eh?

Honestly, The Wanted are more awesome! SORRY :)

Okay, moving on, sidetracking, so Friday is the weigh in ! Worried like shizz now, oh god. Hopefully I lost some weight, :(

On lighter note, yet still nerve-wracking, uni is starting in 8 DAYS, I am a tad bit worried about results.

Insyaallah I did well. I mean, I tried and did my best already, so hopefully my results will be just fine :B

Another thing to be kinda happy about is that I will be going to London next weekend before Sem 2 kicks off!

That's for meeting the family, friends, visit the Royal Academy & watching FutureProof w/ Dive Bella Dive, The Debut & Chloe Swaby live in Camden Barfly.

It was the same venue where I met Forever Is Over , JMA, WSP and Find Me Next Fall :)

Excited, can't wait to take a pic with the FP boys :') ♥

Okay, then, I guess that's enough of my morning blog fix, shall go fix myself some brekkie before I starve myself -_- HAHA.


Monday, January 9, 2012

8 Years and Counting...

Dear Mental,

I had the best skype session with my long-time best friend,
Mahirah Farhana on Sunday.

It was 12am Monday night for her and 4pm Sunday evening for me.

Petaling Jaya - Chelmsford.

She's on holiday, I'm on holiday :)
What a nice time to skype with someone you love.

4 hours makes 8 years look so easy :')

best friends forever & ever, till we die together.
Oh the memories of Freshmen year in SA.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Happy Birthday To...?

Alexandra Jane Handoko,
a.k.a AJ

Happy 19th friend :) Sorry I was unable to attend your dinner party in Manchester. :( I am so sorry again for the last minute cancellation.

Nevertheless, I hope you had fun with the others!

It's great that we're still friends even though we're in different unis. Hopefully, I'll see you in Manchester sometime soon!

I hope you'll like this double insulated mug for your daily dose of coffee/tea ;) Or maybe even hot chocolate!
I will be posting it to Manchester ASAP! :)

Hopefully we'll keep in touch and stay friends throughout uni and so on :)

Picture kudos to AJ's camera!

Taken during Bellerbys Graduation 2011 !


Saturday, January 7, 2012

Endings and Beginnings

Dear Mental,

Happy 2012! I know I've been absent for the last 2 months of 2011. This was due to my very hectic Semester One timetable and Christmas break.

Apologies! Hopefully this year will be more consistent okay? :)

Basically, this is just my short but sweet KUDOS/THANK YOU post to those who made 2011 an amazing and unforgettable year for me :)

1) Family: Mum, dad, sis, cousins, aunties, uncles and etc; Thank you for being there in supporting me when I had to leave for college and uni. It meant the world to me. Your endless support and love is unimaginable!

2) Best friends,friends: You guys know who you are :) Thanks a bunch for keeping in touch with me even though you guys saw me coming home for only twice a year last year! I owe a lot time to spend with each and every one of you ! Forever keep in touch okay?

3) College mates: My Bellerbys people :) Haha, from college mates, we all became friends, right from the first day of college! Thanks for the unforgettable 8 months, I'll forever cherish those moments we had. Hope everyone's doing well in their respective unis now. Stay friends!

4) College teachers: Thanks for the support and advice :) Because of you, I learnt a lot in college!

5) Uni classmates: Hello my 3 months and counting buddies, :) Hopefully the next 2 years and a half will make us closer ! You guys are awesome already ;) Stay the same!

6) Uni lecturers: Thank you for the advice and guidance for last semester! I will be seeing most of you next sem again :) Excited! Although, still worried about my results :S Insyaallah I did fine.

Happy New Year and may 2012 will be better :)